Today, we’re having a huge backyard party for about 20 of my colleagues/spouses and 6 kids. We’re having Mexican food catered and have the pool ready to go for the kids. Since my littlest is 3 and can’t confidently swim on her own, I’ll need to be in the pool with her. So, in a swimming suit.
When my husband and I were discussing it yesterday, I realized that I just didn’t really care… I don’t feel too self-conscious about traipsing around in my swimming suit in front of all my colleagues. It’s maybe a little awkward, but I’m not preoccupied with how my body will LOOK.
This is different for me. In the past, I would have spent the last two weeks really buckling down on my workouts and restricting. This time, I’ve been practicing intuitive eating and ate three brownies last night. I’ve been hitting my workouts hard, but not because of this impending date—because they feel great and I’m finally free(er) with the summer here.
If feels pretty good… at least, right now, before the party. We’ll see how I feel in the moment, but I’m looking forward to actually hanging out and hosting friends again!
Day 156.
I Quit: Giving up Bulimia 