Who, What, When, Where

It’s happened so many times. I’ve assumed that I’ll magically quit this disorder when I meet a new person, move to a new place, start a new job. I’ve met Mr. Right!! I’m so happy that I’m sure this will never happen again! Or, how about this gem: New year, new me! I know I can do it this time! While the sentiment is very real in the moment, it’s never worked. No change in location or situation can make recovery stick. It has to come from within, and that’s something that won’t change without real work. That place and that person have been growing and churning and ticking along for almost 40 years–no amount of situational life changes will yield a magic wand to change that. It’s work I need to do. Day 9.