Future

I have started scheduling out these post by a few days; that way, I’m always a couple days ahead when my week starts crashing around me. And, I don’t feel any kind of anxiety that I need to get to posting each day. I mean, I realize I don’t need to post each day… it’s not like droves of eager fans are going to be disappointed if I wait a day or two. But, for me this is an accountability measure. So, I keep at the daily posts.

What I’m really doing is writing my future. When I’ve written “Day 53” three days in advance, I know that I’m telling myself that I trust myself and my recovery. That NO MATTER WHAT happens, I’m going to get to the end of the fifty-third day without purging. It has helped. It takes that option entirely off the table. I’ve written out my future, and it doesn’t include bulimia. Day 53.