Future

I have started scheduling out these post by a few days; that way, I’m always a couple days ahead when my week starts crashing around me. And, I don’t feel any kind of anxiety that I need to get to posting each day. I mean, I realize I don’t need to post each day… it’s not like droves of eager fans are going to be disappointed if I wait a day or two. But, for me this is an accountability measure. So, I keep at the daily posts.

What I’m really doing is writing my future. When I’ve written “Day 53” three days in advance, I know that I’m telling myself that I trust myself and my recovery. That NO MATTER WHAT happens, I’m going to get to the end of the fifty-third day without purging. It has helped. It takes that option entirely off the table. I’ve written out my future, and it doesn’t include bulimia. Day 53.

Published by Quitter

I’m a college professor, wife, and mother of 2 small kids. I’m on a recovery journey 20 years in the making.

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