I don’t know whether I’d label this “depression,” but I’ve definitely been in a low mood for the past few days. I saw my therapist yesterday, and I actually did feel better after that. But, as I told her, nothing has been really making me happy lately. I don’t feel motivated to work out or to get my actual work accomplished, and I’m not eager to get my day going in the morning. I just feel sad and kind of like crying most of the time, which is absolutely unlike me. I’m moving more slowly than usual, but I can’t seem to go any faster.

Last night, I did something I may never have done before. I put the kids to bed, and then I just laid in my bed for an hour. No music or TV, nothing. I just laid there, knowing I wasn’t going to fall asleep or anything, and I didn’t think about anything at all.

And then I got up, and I think I felt a little better.

Day 121

Published by Quitter

I’m a college professor, wife, and mother of 2 small kids. I’m on a recovery journey 20 years in the making.

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