Intuition

I have always been a decisive person, but I don’t know whether that is necessarily “intuition” or whether I am just quick to know what I like and want, without later regret or overthinking. In our book discussion at that women’s “retreat” last week, we discussed the notion of intuition.

Lately, I’ve felt more lost, as though my intuition has failed me. I think that in large part, that’s due to these “unprecedented” times—we have no past data, no positive or negative experiences in situations like these. Should we send kids to school? Birthday parties? Which sitters are safe? Should grandma come on an airplane? Should I drive 800 miles to visit my parents, even though a car crash is much more likely to kill me than anything else?

There have been no definitively RIGHT answers for the past 14 months. And, I think that’s messed with my decisiveness at least, if not my intuition as a whole. I’m tired of making decisions that may be right or may be wrong, that may have dire consequences or may not.

Day 145.