The other day, I wrote a post about how some food-related things make me feel almost “normal” (whatever that means). On other days, some things are decidedly not normal. Last night, I felt a weird, prolonged rush of anxiety that I haven’t felt in awhile. I’m not really sure what triggered it–maybe the stress ofContinue reading “Not Normal”
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Dress
I am wearing a dress today that I hate. I keep it because it’s a color that I need for academic functions, but it’s a plain jersey dress that doesn’t feel flattering when I’m bloated. And, guess what? PMS central over here. I can feel the dress clinging on my back where I feel aContinue reading “Dress”
Normal
Who knows what “normal” means, but sometimes I find myself thinking, Hey! That was something normal person might do! And, it feels good. The other day, I had a meeting cancellation ping on my phone while I was driving to work, and I stopped for my favorite thing–a grade chai latte with almond milk. ThisContinue reading “Normal”
Grandparents
I attended a funeral yesterday for a woman who died at age 98. She had so many children and grandchildren, and great-grandchildren. She was filled with joy and love. She lived the most amazing life. I was struck by so many thoughts. I want to live that way—full of joy and love to be shared.Continue reading “Grandparents”
Better
Sometimes, I just sit in awe of all that I have and how very, very blessed I am in this life. I have a hard time sitting in gratitude and contentment, but sometimes I am startled by the beauty in my life. A few days ago, my kids watched one of their favorite episodes ofContinue reading “Better”
Overwhelmed
I’m overwhelmed at the moment. Work is at a fever pitch, and I have a 3-year-old miserably ill with RSV (out of school all week). My son was sent home from school crying about a tooth ache, so now we need to get him into the dentist ASAP. Our house just went on the market,Continue reading “Overwhelmed”
Depression
I don’t know whether I’d label this “depression,” but I’ve definitely been in a low mood for the past few days. I saw my therapist yesterday, and I actually did feel better after that. But, as I told her, nothing has been really making me happy lately. I don’t feel motivated to work out orContinue reading “Depression”
Frustration
I’m frustrated. About nearly everything. I’m frustrated that I put 110% into everything I do (my choice, I know), and others can get away with (seemingly) not caring. I’m frustrated that I’m known as the person who is always on top of things, who always has the answers and solves the problems. I’m frustrated thatContinue reading “Frustration”
Discouragement
I have been feeling so discouraged lately. Maybe I’d go so far as to say “depressed.” I can’t figure out exactly why, but it’s probably a combination of things. I am over this semester, and so are all my students. The end cannot come quickly enough. The past year has taken an immense emotional tollContinue reading “Discouragement”
The Professor
My therapist insists on calling a certain character from my past “The Professor,” which I find grating and trite, but I can understand the appeal of such a succinct label. He was, not surprisingly, a professor of mine. He was my mentor during graduate school, and I was his… I don’t know. Technically, I wasContinue reading “The Professor”
I Quit: Giving up Bulimia 