I had a really nice weekend. We enjoyed time with our kids, and we managed to see several different friend groups (even though Holy Week is always the busiest week of all for church workers!). At the same time, I found and find myself feeling… uncomfortable. I’ve gained a couple pounds. I just cannot NOTContinue reading “Uphill Battle”
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Patience
I am an impatient person. I walk fast, I work fast, and I talk fast. This is not always a good thing, of course. But, to say I struggle with patience is an understatement. This past week, when my friend texted that her mother had died unexpectedly, I was hit by how this friendship hasContinue reading “Patience”
Icing on the Cake
Today, a good friend texted me that her mother had died suddenly overnight. I also talked with a friend who had recently talked with a mutual friend and learned that she divorced after 10 years of domestic abuse. I was left feeling so sad for these friends, but also so incredibly grateful for my ownContinue reading “Icing on the Cake”
Migration
I have come to the realization that a lot of the aches and pains that I suffer are psychosomatic. I listen to a podcast about chronic pain in which the podcaster routinely suggests, “The pain is not in your head, but the solution is not in your body.” I truly believe that some of theContinue reading “Migration”
Safeguard
I am working my way down from the slippery slope… my ED came on pretty strong in the aftermath of getting my kids chicken finger meals from a local fast food restaurant. That wasn’t really in my plans for today, but neither was sitting at a pediatric urgent care for 2 hours (kiddo is totallyContinue reading “Safeguard”
Baklava
I’m considering today a success, having eaten FOUR pieces of baklava as my entire food intake thus far today (it’s 3PM). Now, I didn’t plan on eating baklava at all, but it is one of the (many) desserts that I simply cannot resist. We have a student group on campus that orders the MOST AMAZINGContinue reading “Baklava”
Fatigue
My body feels so tired today, despite an appropriate amount of sleep. It’s probably several factors–less rest days from workouts, seasonal allergies, work stress, my period. I was aggravated when I woke up with this feeling, since I had planned time for a workout this morning (especially after eating more than usual yesterday). But, IContinue reading “Fatigue”
Famished
I try to embrace intuitive eating. This is challenging for me, since the last time I really ate intuitively was probably 35 years ago… But, I’m trying to trust my body. This means that some days, I listen to my body and I say, “Seriously? You’re STILL hungry?” and then I keep eating. Today wasContinue reading “Famished”
Steps
I’m not the type to count my daily steps. I am an active person, and I am generally on my feet–I know that I am stepping a-plenty. After birthing complications with my second kid led my thyroid to quit, my life spiraled out of control with fatigue and weight gain, and I bought a FitbitContinue reading “Steps”
Gifts
Throughout my childhood, my mom struggled with anorexia. It was her way of controlling something in the chaos of my dad’s mental illness. I can empathize with that, but at the same time, it makes me so angry, because I know that a lot of my eating disorder was learned from her. In my darkestContinue reading “Gifts”
I Quit: Giving up Bulimia 