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Pity

I had a good therapy session this week, in the way that typically happens: I went in with a list of things I thought I wanted to talk about, but actually ended up talking about something else for the whole hour. We’ve started meeting only once a month, which feels OK, but I’m thinking ofContinue reading “Pity”

Posted byQuitterMay 20, 2022Posted inUncategorizedTags:eating disorder, bulimia, recovery, relationships, ED, estrangement, mother, relapse, pity

Signs

I feel like the road signs in my life are pointing in so many contradictory directions. I don’t know which signs to trust, and I’m starting to feel lost. I had blood work done at my most recent doctor appointment, and I am not happy with the results. Things are all over the map. Basically,Continue reading “Signs”

Posted byQuitterMay 18, 2022Posted inUncategorizedTags:eating disorder, bulimia, recovery, ED, relapse

10.

My recovery is solid, and I feel strong. Those are true statements. And yet… I went to another doctor’s appointment today, in the way that I typically take care of things in these unicorn weeks when my school year is over but my kids’ is not. I always get a haircut and color, see myContinue reading “10.”

Posted byQuitterMay 16, 2022May 16, 2022Posted inUncategorizedTags:eating disorder, bulimia, recovery, ED, relapse

Fat

This is a triggering word, I know. It’s an even more triggering feeling. There is really no simpler way to put it than: I feel fat. My arms feel fat, my cheeks feel puffy. I keep squeezing the flesh around my midsection thinking, Fat, fat fat. I hate that I am 40 years old andContinue reading “Fat”

Posted byQuitterMay 15, 2022May 15, 2022Posted inUncategorizedTags:eating disorder, bulimia, recovery, ED, relapse

Estrangement

I am watching this terrible show on HBO. Or, I should say, I think it is terrible–it is campy and overly dramatic. The dialogue is lacking, and the plot spirals back upon itself in a way that is annoying. And yet, I keep watching it, because I have run out of truly good shows toContinue reading “Estrangement”

Posted byQuitterMay 13, 2022May 13, 2022Posted inUncategorizedTags:eating disorder, bulimia, recovery, ED, estrangement, relapse

Photo

Like many with EDs, I don’t always love to look at photos of myself. There are a few “sanctioned” pictures that I keep up around the house–those wedding and family photos that I have determined are “fine.” But, other than that, I sometimes find myself sucking in my breath when someone posts a picture ofContinue reading “Photo”

Posted byQuitterMay 12, 2022Posted inUncategorizedTags:eating disorder, bulimia, recovery, ED, relapse

Strain

I routinely fight against the feeling of straining fabric. It’s hard not to notice when your pants are a little more snug, or your arms are pressing up on your blazer sleeves in an uncomfortable way. I know that those of us with EDs are particularly attuned to these minor shifts in how our bodiesContinue reading “Strain”

Posted byQuitterMay 11, 2022Posted inUncategorizedTags:eating disorder, bulimia, recovery, ED, relapse

Contradictions

I am feeling a calmness recently that I’m proud of. I’m also struggling with my typical “summer anxiety” as it commingles with my usual anxiety. These are contradictory emotions, certainly, but I’m trying to recognize and live with both. I am relatively at peace with things right now. We have an absurd and stressful situationContinue reading “Contradictions”

Posted byQuitterMay 10, 2022Posted inUncategorizedTags:eating disorder, bulimia, recovery, ED, relapse

Different

I really only look at my recovery day counter these days when I’m writing these posts, but I accidentally clicked on it the other day when it was at 40. I realized how different this time around feels. Last time, 40 days felt like SUCH a long time; I wrote a blog post on howContinue reading “Different”

Posted byQuitterMay 9, 2022Posted inUncategorizedTags:eating disorder, bulimia, recovery, ED, relapse

Reversal

I was feeling pretty down yesterday morning into the early afternoon. There was a series of stressful challenges at work, the house thing is awful and beyond ridiculous (the zoning commission is headed by a brand new inspector who actually said that he wants to “make an example” out of us and has shut downContinue reading “Reversal”

Posted byQuitterMay 5, 2022Posted inUncategorizedTags:eating disorder, bulimia, recovery, ED, relapse

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