I recently watched a class that I taught both via Zoom and in-person. Yeah, it’s hard. Like, nearly impossible. Anyhow, I was surprised to see myself rocking back and forth nearly the entire time I wasn’t speaking. Anytime I was listening to students, fielding questions, or otherwise not actively lecturing, there it was. Back andContinue reading “Movement”
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Therapy
I’ve talked on this blog about how I recently started therapy. I’ve dabbled in the past, but I was never honestly serious about quitting bulimia. So, the therapy was doomed to fail, even if I hadn’t lied my way through. When I decided to begin therapy this time, I promised myself that I wouldn’t lie.Continue reading “Therapy”
Mortality
Yesterday, I received a package that was like a gut punch. I’m the head of a local professional organization, and one of our members sent me a bunch of odd-and-ends personal memorabilia with a note stating that he and his partner had decided to end their lives, at their home, after valiantly battling AIDS forContinue reading “Mortality”
Sobriety
This journey has been long in the making. It’s hard to pinpoint exactly when it started, but I think it traces back to self-care. A few years ago, I was struggling with thyroid issues after my second pregnancy and birth of my daughter–a story in itself, in which I nearly died–and I was so depressed.Continue reading “Sobriety”
The Hump
Day 10. It’s hard for me to get into the double digits, but once I do, I typically do OK with recovery. That is, I might get to 20 days, or maybe 3 months, or maybe even longer. But, I have always relapsed in the past. My therapist maddeningly says, “Never say never!” As in,Continue reading “The Hump”
Who, What, When, Where
It’s happened so many times. I’ve assumed that I’ll magically quit this disorder when I meet a new person, move to a new place, start a new job. I’ve met Mr. Right!! I’m so happy that I’m sure this will never happen again! Or, how about this gem: New year, new me! I know IContinue reading “Who, What, When, Where”
Island
I pride myself on being fiercely independent, and most of the time, that’s a good thing. Every book and every therapist out there will insist that recovery cannot take place without a support system–a network of caring friends and family to hold your hand. I don’t entirely buy that. I’ve battled this personal demon forContinue reading “Island”
Milestones
Some milestones are tiny, seemingly inconsequential. Others are monumental and feel at times utterly insurmountable. Today marks Day 7 on my recovery journey, which doesn’t feel huge, since I’ve been here SO. MANY. times before. But, I’ve just completed a cross-country drive with my kids to visit my parents for 5 days in my childhoodContinue reading “Milestones”
I Quit.
I’ve been working with a therapist for the past several months, which is something new for me. I dabbled with therapy during graduate school, but it never really stuck. And, I was never really honest, so we were blithely skating along the false premise. When I decided to quit my disordered eating, I decided toContinue reading “I Quit.”
It begins.
I don’t quite know where to begin. But, for now it is enough to know that I have begun. I’m on day five of my recovery journey, though the counter has been set, and reset, and set again so many times throughout the past many years. I’ll post something substantive soon, but for now, itContinue reading “It begins.”
I Quit: Giving up Bulimia 