I am working on naming the emotions I’m feeling in the moment, and trying to get to the root cause of them. My therapist has suggested writing an action list for how I can start to feel better about these things, or how I might respond to a “worst case” scenario, but sometimes it’s hardContinue reading “Day 5.”
Tag Archives: Depression
Headaches
My daily morning headaches have returned, and I can’t quite figure it out. I’m not really anxious or more stressed than usual. I truly do believe that they are psychosomatic many times, but I am frustrated not to be able to suss out the root cause. I have felt lately that I’ve lost my “neutral”Continue reading “Headaches”
Raw
I have struggled to find appropriate words for what I’ve been feeling lately: “depression” seems to severe and official; “low mood” sounds dumb. I am feeling irritable and sad more often lately, but those too seem to common descriptors to assign to this, which feels decidedly uncommon for me. I feel like I’m suddenly anContinue reading “Raw”
Replacement
I was talking through my recent sadness with my therapist, and she asked with what I had replaced bulimia. I didn’t have an answer. While bulimia was obviously not a healthy stress response, it was a response. When stress and anxiety started to overcome me, I would binge and purge. The relief was immediate. Now,Continue reading “Replacement”
Depression
I don’t know whether I’d label this “depression,” but I’ve definitely been in a low mood for the past few days. I saw my therapist yesterday, and I actually did feel better after that. But, as I told her, nothing has been really making me happy lately. I don’t feel motivated to work out orContinue reading “Depression”
Discouragement
I have been feeling so discouraged lately. Maybe I’d go so far as to say “depressed.” I can’t figure out exactly why, but it’s probably a combination of things. I am over this semester, and so are all my students. The end cannot come quickly enough. The past year has taken an immense emotional tollContinue reading “Discouragement”