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Different

I really only look at my recovery day counter these days when I’m writing these posts, but I accidentally clicked on it the other day when it was at 40. I realized how different this time around feels. Last time, 40 days felt like SUCH a long time; I wrote a blog post on howContinue reading “Different”

Reversal

I was feeling pretty down yesterday morning into the early afternoon. There was a series of stressful challenges at work, the house thing is awful and beyond ridiculous (the zoning commission is headed by a brand new inspector who actually said that he wants to “make an example” out of us and has shut downContinue reading “Reversal”

Highs and Lows

I’m in a good place with my eating, I guess. I’m not worried about it, and I haven’t had any urges or episodes lately. I feel like I’m back on more solid ground with my recovery and that the ED voice is getting progressively weaker. At the same time, I’m bothered that I don’t knowContinue reading “Highs and Lows”

Relationships

Like everyone, I think often about the relationships I have, and those that I have had and lost. I think about the ways in which relationships transform and grow, or not. I think about the relationships that I want to invest in, and those I may not. The conference I just returned from revealed aContinue reading “Relationships”

Safe

This has been a very busy time professionally, and I’m currently at a conference where I presented two different workshops and performed an important solo performance in front of 200+ peers. So, high-stress and high-stakes. I’m proud of the way I handled my eating this week, and it wasn’t even at the forefront of myContinue reading “Safe”

Uphill Battle

I had a really nice weekend. We enjoyed time with our kids, and we managed to see several different friend groups (even though Holy Week is always the busiest week of all for church workers!). At the same time, I found and find myself feeling… uncomfortable. I’ve gained a couple pounds. I just cannot NOTContinue reading “Uphill Battle”

Patience

I am an impatient person. I walk fast, I work fast, and I talk fast. This is not always a good thing, of course. But, to say I struggle with patience is an understatement. This past week, when my friend texted that her mother had died unexpectedly, I was hit by how this friendship hasContinue reading “Patience”

Icing on the Cake

Today, a good friend texted me that her mother had died suddenly overnight. I also talked with a friend who had recently talked with a mutual friend and learned that she divorced after 10 years of domestic abuse. I was left feeling so sad for these friends, but also so incredibly grateful for my ownContinue reading “Icing on the Cake”

Migration

I have come to the realization that a lot of the aches and pains that I suffer are psychosomatic. I listen to a podcast about chronic pain in which the podcaster routinely suggests, “The pain is not in your head, but the solution is not in your body.” I truly believe that some of theContinue reading “Migration”

Safeguard

I am working my way down from the slippery slope… my ED came on pretty strong in the aftermath of getting my kids chicken finger meals from a local fast food restaurant. That wasn’t really in my plans for today, but neither was sitting at a pediatric urgent care for 2 hours (kiddo is totallyContinue reading “Safeguard”